Hello Beautiful

Guys I'm so desperate. I'm swimming in a huge pool full of feels and I can't get out. I have butterflies in my stomach. B u t t e r f l i e s. And why? Because of a fanfiction. I know that I said that fanfictions sucked and bla bla bla but this one is so good. I'm talking about Dark. If you're into the 1D fandom you probably know what I'm talking about. 

So basically the story is about Bo and Harry. Bo is an innocent girl with a normal life and Harry is this dangerous guy with a dark past. In the first chapters you get the feeling that Harry is disgusting and the worst person ever and that he's abusing Bo. But then you start to see his soul and that he's hopelessly in love with her. And then comes a point where you can't stop reading it. And you get sucked into the story. 

Usually when I read a book or whatever I never picture myself as one of the characters, but the thing with Dark is that I see myself as Bo which is so awkward in so many ways. This is twilight all over again. No this is even worse. 

It's not even about the fact that the main character "is" Harry because it's obvious that I have a huge crush on Harry, but Harry from Dark is the opposite of the real Harry. He looks like Harry but he's totally different from him. I can't stop thinking about him. I get so angry and sad when I'm not reading it. It's like an addiction and you just can't stop. And even if I could stop, I don't want to. I don't wish I was Bo because she didn't have an easy life but I wish I had Harry. Because he loves her so much, he trusts her, and behind that mask there's a beautiful soul that he only shows to her. I feel guilty because I feel incredibly sad because Harry is just a fictional character when there's people with huge problems. 

You know that line "You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness" from Somebody You Used To Know, that's the most accurate thing ever said. I am addicted to this darkness. 

I'll be writing about this a lot, I need to express myself because I am going crazy seriously.