I can't breathe

I am so stressed out right now. I just want to sleep under a rock and never wake up. It's 19th of November which means that my birthday is coming. 

It also means that next week I have a global math test and that I need to study for it but I don't fell like doing it so here I am.

About my birthday... well I'm feeling very nervous about it. Usually I start planning my birthday like 6 months before but this year because I'm a sucker for birthdays. But this year I haven't planned anything. At all. And I think my parents are forgetting about it as well! I really need to remind them how much I want an iPhone though. 

Anyways, I just want to stop time and think about all the things I have to do and organize my teenage life. Because I have tons of little things to worry about and I am exhausted because my brain never stops thinking about every little detail. 

I really need a break. Not only psychologically but also physically. All this stress have accumulated into my back and I know that this sounds weird but I couldn't move because of the pain. And it was all thanks to stress. 

The only thing that I want to do is sleep because it's only time when I can rest. Well, not really because I always end up thinking about all the stuff that I need to do in the next day before I fall asleep. I wake up already tired and exhausted. 

And even when I have free time, the only thing that I can think of is how busy the next day or week or whatever will be!! I feel like I'm in this cage where I can't breathe. I'm completely suffocated and I just want to rest my brain.