I'm not a stop along the way, I'm a destination

I'm having like this huge meltdown. I'm really going to miss Gossip Girl. So many memories. Not only about the episodes and the characters but also our own memories that are attached to the tv shows. 

I just feel really sad because it's like the end of an era. It's so weird to think that I will never see another Chuck and Blair drama again. Or have all those mixed and beautiful feelings. I don't even know. 

I just really like to get lost in a story. It makes everything easier. I'm not talking about this anymore because to be honest I don't want to explore these feelings again. I already did that last night and I was kinda of a mess so I better not do it again. 

I'll miss you guys

I used to be love drunk but now I'm hungover

I must warn you that this post will sound really cheesy and that I will probably regret posting it and eventually delete it.

I thought I was being paranoid when I thought that everyone was different (in a really bad way) but I got the confirmation on my birthday. 

One of my best friends in this whole world didn't wish me a happy birthday. I know it's not that big of a deal. But for me kinda is because I love my birthday and I like that the people I care about remember it. But that's not even the worse. The thing is we used to freaking talk everyday. We were the best friends is world. Seriously. I've never had a friendship like that. He is (or was) a guy that you would hate at first because he seems like a really stupid person at first but then you get to know him and realize that he has (or had) a beautiful soul. I don't even know what I'm saying. I really though that though. 

Anyways, I invited him to my birthday party like I do every year. But he told everyone except me that he didn't want to come because he was too old for my birthday parties and that they were really boring and such. And he actually convinced two of my friends not to come. My freaking best friend. And those three didn't even have the courage to tell me that they weren't coming. 

I am astonished with what I feel about them because I really think I hate them. I don't want to see them ever again. I swear. I don't even want to talk to them. I hate them. I just hate them. 

Ok I know I'm a freaking nerd, I don't like to party and drink all night, I don't smoke, I've never been drunk in my whole life. But that's who I am. I'm not ashamed of that and I will never be. I like to watch Harry Potter marathons and read books while drinking tea, those are the things I like to do. I like to laugh about simple and silly stuff. I like pajamas and milk. I love singing. I love to be a teenager and a little kid at the same time. That's what I want to be my whole life. Not a freaking whore who only smokes shit like most girls of my age. 

I'm done with them. I don't ever want to talk to them or even see them. They have just lost me without even knowing it. This really made see who my real friends are and I love them so much, they're the sweetest people I've ever met. And they never let me down. 

I held on to 16 as long as I could

I'm officially 17 now! Which makes me so sad because I want to be 9 again and be 9 forever! But I can't so I'll just keep growing outside and be a child inside forever. 

My parents gave an iPod Touch and I loooooove it! I had a iPod Touch but it has like four years and I really wanted the new one. So yeah I'm happy about that. 

I woke up with my family singing happy birthday to me and it was really sweet. My dad actually searched for videos of Harry singing happy birthday so I could wake up with his voice which I thought it was soooooo cool! 

I had to go to school but I only went to my first class which was Biology and skipped Chemistry. In Biology I found out that I got a 20 out of 20 on a test so I guess it was worth it. 

After school I went shopping with my family, I bought awesome clothes and tons of socks. I really love socks ok. I'll post some pictures later. I also bought all the Christmas' presents that I needed to buy which was awesome! Uh and I bought an iPod case and it's New York related which I love!!! 

Then I went to Starbucks and drank a venti Caramel Hot Chocolate like I do every year on my birthday. And finally we all ate pizza at dinner.

I was really disappointed about my birthday cake because it was supposed to be Batman related and have the bat symbol and all that but they didn't make what I ask them to so it looked awful. On the other hand, it was delicious so it's ok. 

Lazy Day

Ok so hi! 

Today is the first day of what is about to be my last Christmas' break while I'm on high school. I can't really decide if that's good or not.

I have about 15 days to celebrate Christmas, watch tv shows and movies, listen to all the music that I can and eat as much food as my stomach can handle. 

About the Christmas spirit, that's not a problem for me because I'm as christmasy as it gets. Christmas is my favorite time of the year! But I'll do a post talking about it later. 

I don't really know why am I writing this post because everytime I write about something I decide that I should do a post only talking about that something so I delete all that I wrote. And that was how this post happened. 

Basically this was just a celebrating post. Celebrating what, you ask. Well... Life! Nope, just kidding. Celebrating the fact that I won't have to go to school for 15 days WOOP WOOP.

Oh my god, what if the world really ends? I hope not! Seriously... what if? I should write a post about it as well shouldn't I? 

OH GOD TURN AROUD JUST CAME ON SHUFFLE, I'M MENTALLY DANCING. THIS IS MY JAM. I LOVE CONOR MAYNARD OK AND NE YO TOO BECAUSE HIS SONGS HAVE SOUL.

I don't what just happened. I'm sorry. But that song messes with me. 

Ok that's all for this post.