Stop it

Some stupid magazine published that Harry slept with 410 women in one year and suddenly all the girls that used to say that they loved him and all that, are saying mean things but so so so mean. What the hell is wrong with this world? First, do you seriously believe that he slept with 410 different women? And even if he did it's not your damn business! He's still the same caring person that you supposedly worship! I don't understand people seriously. I mean, I admit that I'm a fan of Harry and 1D, but as a fan I care so much about him I would never say those mean things to him even if he had slept with 92038402938 women! I know I can't really say that I know him, but I have seen so many videos and interviews of Harry that I think I actually know him, at least a little bit. He's such a lovely person, they all are. Just stop saying mean things. It hurts. They're real people with feelings for God's sake!

How can people say those things... Seriously. It actually hurts me to think that he's sad. I know it's stupid because I don't even know him or will ever know him but I don't know I just really care about him. About them all. And I guess that's what a true fan is about. Loving their work and the lovely people they are. 

We were infinite

I'm really buried with feelings. I miss my friends, the ones I thought I would never miss because they would always be here. I always missed them because I didn't see them everyday as I used to but we talked all the time. Now we don't. Everyone's different, except me! Am I the only one who hasn't changed? Am I the problem? I really don't understand. We used to be so closed, like a family. And one by one they started to disappear. I never in a million years thought that something like this would happen. I remember once telling my two best friends: "We, right here, right now, are forever guys and I mean it." And it felt so right. We were going through some bad stuff so it was a really beautiful moment. At least in my memory because I bet they don't remember this at all. There was another moment that I will never forget, never never never! In the "last day" I spent in my "hometown" (it was not really the last day because I go there all the time but it was the last day that it felt like the place where I live) it was late and I had to go to my new home so my best friend and I really mean it when I say my best friend hugged me and we just stood there crying for minutes. It was one of those moments you only see in movies. It was awful but lovely at the same time. I love him so so so so much (as a friend obviously) but I believe that he doesn't care about me anymore which feels like someone is constantly punching me in the stomach. I wish he remember all the things we did, how much we laughed together, how much we shared with each other, how silly we were together, how everything felt perfect when we were together. This feels like I'm talking about a boyfriend but I swear I'm not, he's just a really special person for me, he truly is my best friend. I will be missing him forever. The person he used to be at least. I will be missing tons of people but especially him! I can't explain this, sometimes I think I'm crazy and that "he" never existed but then I read old conversations between us and all of sudden everything seems real. I'm sorry for this whining but we are my brotp. 

I know you will never read this but I love you and I will love you forever even when you don't remember who I am. 

I do like nutella but don't tell her

Let's just take a minute to appreciate Harry's perfection. He reminds me of someone that I know in real life but I can't remember who. Which is very annoying because if I know someone who looks like Harry well HOW CAN I NOT REMEMBER WHO IT IS? On another note I swear that I'm not usually like this! But I don't know this is the only place where I can share my passion for Harry and One Direction without being judged. 

Mad world

I am really mad. Seriously. People are going crazy! I'm talking about One Direction fans but I don't think you can call those people fans though. People are always making stuff about Louis and Harry being a couple and you know they're really cute together but in a bromance way! This has gone too far and Louis got really sick of it and just told everyone what he felt about it on twitter. And suddenly all the people who used to say that they loved 1D and Louis and bla bla started to say really bad things to Louis. I'm so frustrated! I don't understand how can they do that. I am a One Direction fan and really really like them! As a fan I would never ever ever ever in this whole world tell Louis the mean things people have told him. One Direction are only 5 teenage boys who love to sing and they are such a natural talent. I don't understand how some people hate them in the first place but what's even worse than that is the fact that actual so called fans are sending Louis hate. Because he said that Larry is a total bullshit! He's right! Stop being mean to him ARGH he's such a lovely human being, how can you do this to him? He's a person with feelings and I bet that your mean words really hurt him. I wish I could tell him how wonderful he is and how he has tons of people around the world who really love him! Argh that's why I hate people! 

You light up my world like nobody else!

I may or may not be developing a huge crush on Harry Styles. I know it's a cliché but I don't know how to explain this. One Direction has won my heart. There I said it. I love their songs, I love them, they're so nice! I can't really pick one and say "he's my favourite!" But I'm having these feelings about Harry that I can't really explain, he reminds me of puppies and rainbows and you just can't not like puppies and rainbows. But all the boys... they're so cute and they're actually best friends. I've watched all the videos of their youtube channel and ughhhh they're so awesome! I hope I'll like them forever because they make me so happy! I guess that's the good thing about being a teenager and fangirl, the smallest thing makes you happy!  

Yup, that's what I'm talking about...

Nothing's fine I'm torn

Hey guys! So school is about to start and I'm becoming more and more depressed. Not about the people even though I'm not nearly excited to see them all again. It's more about the studying part and all that. Not because I'll have to work just because I'm really scared. I completely failed at my Finals and I have no confidence in me. The only thing that I was confidence about me was my work, because it used to be the only thing where I was good at. But now... I feel so disappointed at myself, I feel like a loser. All I wanted to do my whole life was to be a doctor. Now I just want to go to college and experienced the college life no matter what the course is. Because, to be honest, I know I will never be able to have the grades I need in my Finals. So I'm doomed. Anyways I don't really want to talk about that. I'm really worried because I can't see me studying again, not as I used to. I'm really down, those exams took a big part of me. I don't know who I am anymore... as a student I mean. Plus I have no one in my school to support me, they all want to see me fail to be quite honest. I'm really tired of failure. And this past year all I did was fail. And I don't want to fail again, ever! The thing is I don't know what is like to succeed anymore and that scares me. I don't know when did this happen because school was always easy to me, having good grades was always easy for me and now here I am with my heart totally broken because I might not be a doctor after all. And no one believes in me anymore and that hurts. I just wish I had good grades in my exams because I would be in cloud nine right now. By the end of this school year I'm going to have to repeat my 11th exams which means I'm going to do 4 exams in two weeks... I'm not confident about it at all. I'm praying that some kind of miracle happens and that the universe will help through this. I'm going to try my best obviously but what if my best is not enough? I'm just... completely torn. 

My first mini haul

Helloo! So today I'm gonna do a mini haul! Woop woop! I bought some clothes and stuff that I really really loved and I decided that I wanted to show you. By the way I want to apologize in advance because of the quality of the pictures. I haven't find a cool spot to put the clothes and take a picture of them so the pictures are really bad and I'm really sorry for that! 

The first thing is a watch. This was a gift and it's reallyyyyy pretty, I love it. It's from Swatch and it was kind of expensive but yeah I'm in love with it. I've been wanting a watch for so much time but never really wanted to spend so much money on something like that so I never really bought one. But then G said that she would buy me a watch so I was really happy about it. 

This a little oversized pullover that I found in sales so it was really cheap. It's really pretty and it's really soft and I loveeee its color because it reminds of Fall and hot chocolate. 

The 3rd thing is this denim shirt. Oh my god I can't tell how much I love this shirt. First it's oversized and I was looking for a denim oversized shirt for months! I love oversized clothes as you can see. It was kind of expensive but it's so beautiful so I had to buy it. Also a random fact, I wanted to buy the large size but my mom wouldn't let so I had to buy the medium. As I said I like to have super oversized clothes!

Oh my god, these trousers are like my best friends right now. They're high waisted! I've been looking for these kind of trousers for so many time and I finally found them in H&M. They're so beautiful! And also really cheap for a trouser. (I'm sorry for my foot standing there, yes I like hello kitty socks) 

And that's it! I will probably do a September favorites later on. For now I will keep on with the depressive posts and the mini hauls. See ya xx :)