Heart on fire

I don't know what to say. And it's 1 am and I wish it wasn't this late. I actually wrote a text talking about my best friend and how I'm so sad and mad at her. But I deleted it because I'm still hoping that this is just a phase. Which I'm sure it's not, but still. Whatever, I still have my tv shows, my books and my music and they never leave me. 

Bad day today. 

The perks of being me

This is a random post (again) because I feel like talking but I don't have anyone to talk to.

Ok so I realized that I've always loved tv shows!!! When I was little I used to spent hours watching Disney Channel and I loved its tv shows and I actually shipped some couples! Even before Disney Channel I shipped people on soap operas and stuff lol. 

Lately I've been spending a lot of time on youtube and I found this channel http://www.youtube.com/user/nerimon/videos which is totally awesome! It's Alex's channel who is a friend of charlieissocoollike. Anyways, Alex has filmed himself reading twilight and he basically makes fun of it. Ok so I have to tell that when I saw Twilight (the first movie) I loved it. Don't judge me, I was 13! I loved it so much that I bought the book and in that time I hated reading. I loved the book so I bought the other three. I loved them so much. I was so in love with Edward Cullen. You don't understand how I was obsessed with Twilight. Then it became too popular (and I hate when things get popular because even if it's a great thing it becomes stupid when it's popular, idk how to explain myself) and I forgot about it but it's still a soft spot. The thing is, now I find the whole story so funny but in that time my world revolved around it. Ohhh how things change. 

On another note, I dreamt about my 7th grade crush. Ugh it sucked because I hate him now. My sub-conscience doesn't stop reminding me that he exists and that I had a crush on him FIVE YEARS AGO. Please stop it. I find him so disgusting now, I can't even explain. 

Also, I must tell that I'm in love with Bruce Wayne. I wish Batman was real. 

Besides that, I should tell you that I feel really fat lol. I've been eating too much crap lately, maybe it's because of that........... 

And I realized that I don't have Love Story by Taylor Swift on my iTunes library! How's that possible? I haven't listened to it in years now I understand why.

And this was my crappy post of the dayyyyy! Muah! (Just so you know, muah is the sound of a kiss)

Home is where your heart is

I've finally realized that next year will be my senior year. When did this happen? I hate to hate school because to be honest I've always loved school. What's not to love about it? Yes you have to study and bla bla but you spend your whole day with your friends laughing at your teachers, being scared about exams together. School should be perfect. But it's not. At least not for me. I don't have friends at my school, seriously I don't like any of them. How is that possible? They're all so mean. I hate feeling this way. And what I hate the most is that high school is almost over and I didn't have the high school experience I've always wanted to have. In 7th/8th grade I was really into those cheesy teenage american movies and I used to say that I loved high school because I thought that high school started at 7th grade whatever details details. Then real high school came and I started to hate high school, I started to feel like an outcast, like the underdog, like that fragile girl who lives in her own little world. I always thought that I'd be the popular girl, not the mean one, the one that loves everybody and that everybody loves. I was always like that. Then I moved to another town, changed school, became mad and I changed completely. This damn town changed me, and I'm so mad because high school should have been the greatest time of my life. I will never have high school again, never never never. I really just want to be a normal teenager. I just wanna have tons of friends and a boyfriend and go to parties. But I'm not good with people, I think teenage boys are stupid and I hate clubs. I feel like I'm stuck in some cage and I really just need someone to open my cage so I can finally be who I wanna be! Because right now I can't be that person, I don't belong here. 

Even though the beginning of senior year means that high school will be over soon, it also means that I'm going to college, that I'm coming back to my hometown, that I'm gonna meet new people. That makes me so happy, scared, but really happy. I'm planning on going to England on my 2nd year of college. I'm gonna find the place where I belong. 

Timing sucks

Have I found my One Tree Hill?

Fate and werewolves

First of all, I'd like to say that I was really scared about this episode because Jeff kept saying that someone was going to die, Colton tweets about someone we love dying, Holland tweets something that really seemed like a goodbye tweet, and every single person who watches teen wolf became even more scared than before! Including me obviously. The thing about this tv show is that the cast is even more perfect than show. Anyways let's do thisssss, it's review time *lalalalililirururururupammmmms*

2x12: Master Plan

• First scene: Jackson in an ambulance, probably dead. Stiles in a basement with Boyd and Erica and they're probably going to die. 
• Then Jeff kicks you right in the feels with papa Stilinsky. Pleaseeee he's the best! And also with coach and Scott, that was so lovely!
• Derek and Peter pop up and they have an interesting conversation with Scott and Isaac. I'm sorry but Peter is absolutely the best. When Scott tells Isaac who Peter is oh my god I laughed. 
• Ugh Allison... I used to love her. But this is too much. Tired of that bitchy attitude.
• Then we find out that Jackson is not dead (or the kanima... it depends) I was happy! I love Jackson.
• Omg, Lydia and Stiles... I love them so much. Lydia has this perfect little face and Stiles is so in love with her that breaks my heart. But I do think that Lydia belongs to Jackson.
• I loveeeed the scene when Scott asks her mom to zip the thing where Jackson was. 
• The presents' scene with Lydia and Stiles was totally my favorite.
• When Allison's dad appeared to help Scott and Isaac, awesome awesome awesome I knew that he had a good heart.
• Gerard is even worse than everyone thinks and made Jackson transforms in something even bigger and getter than a kanima. Gerard is so mean I hate him. He doesn't even care about his own granddaughter. And Allison doesn't get. Please, she shot Scott! S C O T T! Girls are the worst.
• The fight with the kanima was so cool, not because of the actual fight but because of the music and all those feelings. During that fight I relived every moment of that show.
• The next scene... Gerard is pure evil. This whole thing was not about Kate, it was about him. He's dying so he wants to become a werewolf. Seriously that man is sick. He not only wants to become a werewolf but also an alpha. Buuuuut super vet and Scott came up with a brilliant plan: mountain ash. Eheheheheh 

"You might be an alpha, but you're not mine" 

• Oh Lydia and Stiles appear out of nowhere! And the kanima is about to attack Lydia when she shows the key of Jackson's house. And he actually remembers everything! And when you think you've seen it all, Derek and Peter kill Jackson and he dies in Lydia's arms. Also Allison and Scott hold hands. Yeah now she wants him again. Pls. 
• But then again when you think you've seen it all, Jackson becomes a werewolf. Yup. I'm not sure about it though but I think that's what happened.

"There's no such thing as fate. There's no such thing as werewolves"

• Scott and Allison... well I loved them, still do to be quite honest. Scott is the best. He's always trying to be good for everyone. And he really loves Allison but I'm not sure if she loves him.
• Boyd and Erica are surrounded by werewolves... alphas? i guess.
• Super vet and the counselor? What? I didn't understand that.
• Yup, Derek was trying to build a pack because of the alpha pack. But how can there be an alpha pack if every pack has to have a alpha how can every member of a pack be an alpha?
• Awww the last scene was so freaking perfect. Scott is right, he's right back where he started and that's a cool place. He has his best friend. 

The brushing ritual

I must warn you this is a total random post, but I just feel like telling some pointless details about me. Ok so I found out about this really cool vlog channel that it's called The Lizzie Bennet Diaries and it's like a 21st century adaptation of Pride and Prejudice. The main character (I never actually read the book so I'm not sure if it's the main character or not) of the book is the one who creates a youtube channel and vlogs about her life. It's really awesome! 

Here's the first vlog

On another note, I realized that I make huge life decisions while I'm brushing my teeth. Some people do that in the shower but I like to be different. That's probably because I spend too much time brushing my teeth. Anyways, today while I was doing it I was thinking about my birthday party this year even though my birthday is in December. So my birthday party is always this gathering event because my group of friends... well we're kinda of separated because we're not at the same school anymore and bla bla so my birthday parties became this thing where we all get together and laugh about stuff, play some games, stay up all night watching horror movies. And it used to be awesome, like really awesome. But lately, I don't know it's not as cool as it used to be. I mean, it's not bad but I feel like people don't have fun anymore. Even me! It's fun... but not in an overwhelming fantastic legendary way as it used to be. Now it's just an ok fun. So I'm not sure if I should do it this year... but I'm afraid if I don't do it that it will break us apart and we're already really distant from each other, I don't want more distance. We may not be connecting and suck now, but we were once so united and happy so I really feel that I should give us a chance. But I'm always trying to do that but it's not the same anymore and I'm finally fine with it. 

This was not suppose to be a lame post talking about my friends but the brushing ritual never fails. 

Pointless

Hey guys! Just wanted to say that I'll post my review from Teen Wolf's finale tonight. Also, I've just found out that people talked to Tom Daley on skype which means that I could have done it too. Guys I could actually talked to my teen idol. YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS? It means that I would probably be jumping around and screaming right now. But since I live in Narnia I'm not screaming and jumping, actually I'm sitting on an awesome armchair (I really love this armchair) being moody because tomorrow I'm gonna have dinner with my uncles which is pointless because this dinner has nothing to do with me, it's kinda of a long story and since the story sucks I'm not telling you the story. Anyways, I also found out that Thomas is a straight A student which means he's my soulmate. Seriously, he's british, handsome, intelligent, nice, an incredible athlete. I don't ...

ABORT MISSION ABORT MISSION MY DAD IS BEHIND ME

UFFFF CLEAR

... know, I just really like him. I don't care that people think I'm crazy, everything is Thomas Daley and nothing hurts.  

My Lab

I don't really know when I found internet. And when I say internet, I'm talking about tv shows, twitter, actors, tumblr, fandoms, all of that stuff that my friends don't know about. Right now, for me it's super normal to have a crush on a character of a tv show or book, it's super normal to watch tons of series and really feel everything the characters feel and be so into the story that all I can think about is that. But it wasn't always like this, and lately I've been trying to think how did I become this? Not that is a bad thing, I actually like to be like this because it's my protection, to be honest. I've created my own little world where vampires and werewolves exist, where I'm an olympic gymnast, where I'm a doctor, where I can fly, where I can go to London anytime I want, where I don't need to be anything I'm not, where I'm living my dreams. In that little world, I'm safe. No worries, only Hakuna Matata. The best thing about this world is that it will never change unless I want it to. It will always be there for me, it will understand me like no one can because after all, this world is me. I love being there. Sometimes I spend too much time in wonderland that I find myself moody and mad at everyone because real life becomes boring and sad sometimes. But the thing is, I think everyone has their own little world, all you need is imagination. When I was little I used to think that my brain was a lab and there was two scientists in that lab. Both women. One was really smart, always right, very focused. The other one was more fun and clumsy. And recently I found out that those two were my imaginary friends. Why did I say recently, you ask. Because I never really understand how people could have imaginary friends! When I was little I tried to have one or at least pretend... you know fake it till you make it. But now I realized that I did have imaginary friends. Oh well, the scientists became actors, actors became characters, and now I have tons people living in my lab. It's nice though. 

That's it. Stay tuned for more. Bamsssss. *some cool sound effect pops on*

I want a Thomas

Guys I'm in too deep. Tom Daley has taken over my life without even knowing it. Everyone was talking about him on tumblr and facebook but I couldn't really understand why everyone was so obsessed with him. But then I saw him diving and his true happiness when he won the bronze medal. How can someone be so handsome, an excellent athlete and an incredible person at the same time? And more important, he's MY AGE. I admit that I have a huge crush on him. And he's British. You can't ask for more. I finally have a crush on somebody that's not a fictional character that's progress! No but seriously, he's such an awesome diver and so young. I was really amazed by him. Still am. The olympics were so awesome, I had the chance to "meet" great people! I was so amazed with artistic gymnastics! The fab 5 were awesomeee! Also Mustafina is such a cutie. I'm probably going to write something about the olympics because I really loved it! Now I'll leave you with a picture of my future husband. 

"If you call one wolf, you invite the pack"

Independe Day

Hey party is here! And by party I mean me obviously because I'm such a party girl. Anyways, it's review time! *some sort of song pops up* 

2x11: Battlefield

• The first few minutes of the episode are heart breaking. I mean, Stiles is so sad and scared. And the most unbelievable thing is that he's scared for the people he loves and not for him. 
• Then there's Scott and his mother... Seriously she's her mother, she should love him and support him no matter what! Ok, yes he is a werewolf but so what? He hasn't killed anyone, all he does is protect her and everyone he loves and I can't see what's so wrong about that. 
• Allison is being pretty stupid too. Ok we know her mother died and it's horrible. But her mother was a bitch and Derek only killed her because she tried to kill him first. Can't blame him for that. Besides that, not every werewolf in town is blamed for her mother's death so stop being such a bitch Allison, think with your own head not your grandfather's. 
• Poor Jackson... he is such a nice person in his heart, and the only person who knows the real Jackson is Lydia. 
• Lydia... Well Lydia is dealing with some messed up stuff without even knowing it. I don't understand why they don't tell her what's going on. They're not protecting, ignorance is not protection, on the contrary knowledge leads to power. 

But you know: "If you're going through hell, keep going!"

• After that scene with Stiles and the counselor, Scott gets out of the shower... man no words needed. But that paradise vision disappear pretty quickly when the kanima appears in his room... holding his mother and Gerard says he wants to avenged Kate, pleaseee I hate that family. Always wanting revenge. 
• And then there's Erica and Boid who think they heard another wolves. Please, why so naive.
• Super vet will always be super. He's so awesome and Isaac turns out to be a pretty nice person. Poor dog though :(
• AHHHH Peter Hale is back. I still don't know everyone in that cast is so beautiful. Anyways, Peter has the cure for Jackson which means he's probably gonna live which is awesome because I love him.

"We will not go quite into the night, tonight we celebrate our independence day."

• Game time. Scott is benching. Jackson or the kanima as you prefer is playing. There's gonna be blood. Stiles is playing. "Oh dear God" Scott needs to save the day again without getting any gratitude. Stilinsky team is the best. Game on. 
• Isaac comes to help Scott save the day while Allison is bitch and tries to kill Boid and Erica and actually enjoys it which is even more bitchier. 
• Isaac tries to injury every player on his team so Scott can play, but he injures himself because of Jackson. However Scott manage to play! And Gerard offers his own granddaughter... please that man has no soul.
• Stiles becomes the star of the game :D
• Something happens. A scream. Somebody is down on the field. It's Jackson. He stabbed himself with his claws. Meanwhile there's no sign of Stiles. 

We know that both Stiles and Jackson are not dead because of the next episode promo. But I'm still scared, I'm pretty sure someone will die. We have to wait to see. I'm not ready to watch the last episode of this season and spend months with no Teen Wolf, you know you can only be cosy with Posey. 

Being Cosy With Posey

Okay guys, I'm trying to hide all these feelings that I have about Teen Wolf but I just can't. I mean, that cast is freaking flawless. Everyone is beautiful how is that even possible? I don't know. Anyways, since I can no longer hide my obsession I'm gonna start reviewing every episode of it even though I'm a bit late because season 2 is almost over. But no problem! I'm gonna rewatch season 1 and then season 2 because I won't handle spending so much time with no teen wolf episodes so... 

I'm gonna be reviewing 2x11: Battlefield tomorrow afternoon because right now I don't the episode with me and I'd like to do a review of every little detail of it so I need to watch it and write at the same time! Okay guys that's it! I told you that I'd post more often so here am I with these new ideas! :D

House's names

You know what really bugs me? Facebook. People on facebook. People in general. But mainly people on facebook. And why? Because there's this girl who post a photo on facebook with this description: Me in the orange tree farm :)))). When I saw this I exploded. And why? BECAUSE THAT'S THE NAME OF HER HOUSE LOL. Yup she lives in a mansion called orange tree farm but it's not a farm it's a palace. And she takes pictures on her pool and upload them in facebook just to show that she's having a great summer in a great palace. But it's her house... I mean I can name my house Batman house and then post pictures on facebook saying: me in the Batman house :)))). I will never understand these girls. 

The Secret Life Of the American Teenager

I'm here to talk about a tv show that really bothers me. I started watching The Secret Life Of the American Teenager this summer because I thought that it would be nice to watch it, but then I realized that it's all about sex and pregnant girls. Amy is annoying as fuck, she's constantly complaining about her life because she has a baby, "oh poor me I was fooled by Ricky and now I have a baby because of him. poor me Ricky is always helping with my baby. poor me family wants me to take care of my son but I'm only 15". Seriously that girl. Her friends are so dumb, specially Maddison. Ugh and Lauren thinks she knows everything. Her sister, Ashley, I liked her she was the only character that has a brain but in the last season she completely changed. Ricky is pretty and he's the only reason why I still watch the show sometimes. Adrian is a slut, she only cares about herself. Ben is stupid and corny and he annoys me. Grace, the christian girl becomes a bigger slut than Adrian. Jack is nuts. 

Bottom line: the show sucks, it's ridiculous.

Liar

First of all, I'm sorry I didn't write that confessions thing. Second of all, nobody reads the blog so I shouldn't even care. But yeah I couldn't found any confessions to tell you when I started to write that post. And then I got busy. Ok anyways, now there's gonna be a daily post everyday (obviously) and I'm gonna warn you that there might be posts with a word or two words. Ok that's it! Oh and today I might post tons of things to compensate the other days that I didn't post a thing.