Fuck you

I am so mad. But so mad. You can't even imagine. I don't even know if I'm mad or sad or maybe even both. The only thing I wanna say is fuck you, because seriously you suck and I hate you. 

Random stuff is random

Tomorrow I'm gonna make a post with 100 confessions about myself. But today I'm just here to tell you some random stuff. 

For example, my exams are over and I'm officially on vacations! yaaaay me! 

And yesterday I went to the beach for the first time this year and I didn't even undress myself because I don't feel comfortable with my body ahahahahahahah how awesome is that. 

My best friend's birthday was last week and instead of hanging out with her I wished her a happy birthay. on facebook. That's our friendship now that she has a boyfriend and tons of news friends.

I think sleeping in the summer it's stupid because it's too hot and it's a waste of time.

I really admire people that recover from eating disorders, because even though I don't have an eating disorder, I really feel their pain. 

That last point was kind of a confession... and the other one too. Who cares, I feel like talking about random stuff.

At this time of the night I always feel like eating tons of food like an apple pie, chocapic, a cheeseburger, things with chocolate, nutella, cereals...

Me and my friends are going to the pool this weekend and I'm really scared about it because of what I said before... But I miss them really much so I don't really care.

I'm so angry at my best friend, ughhhh I didn't want to say this but this thing is really getting on my nerves. Why is she such a nice and loving person to other people and to me...? She barely talks to me and when she does ugh it feels like she doesn't want to. What have I done? I mean seriously? It's not my fault that we live 100 km away from each other but you know there's skype and stuff like that... 

Whatever, I don't wanna talk about it. I'm gonna listen to School's Out and really mean every single word I say!

Love at first episode

Okay, so first of all usually I'm not a fangirl and I don't really get obsessed over people or tv shows. But this time I surrender. I mean look at them, what's not to like? For those who don't have a clue who I'm talking about it's the cast of Teen Wolf. And no it has nothing to do with twilight or anything like that. Obviously it's a teenager's show but I think that's pretty obvious... Anyways it's based on an old awesome movie called Teen Wolf as well, and it's really really cool. Besides the fact that it's an awesome tv show, the cast is even more awesome! They're so funny and we can see that they're all good friends!

Okay, about the show... I don't wanna tell you anything about it because I'd be spoiling you. It has a lot of action and suspense, it has also some comedy and a little bit of romance obviously. But yeah I recommend you that you watch at least the pilot because it's really worth it! You'll see you will love it! At least I did, love at first episode to be honest! 

On another note, my last two exams are next week, I still have a lot to study but in less than a week I'll be able to post more often and all that. But now I'm really focusing on my exams because it's my last chance to improve my grades from 1st phase. I'm hoping that I can get a really good grade, so pray for me guys! 

I miss being a baby

Dreams have no measure

Exame Biologia e Geologia: 12

Exame Física e Química A: 13

E estas foram só as piores notas da minha vida, nos testes em que devia ter tirados as melhores. A fase da depressão já passou agora estou zangada e revoltada porque é injusto. Mas quem é a pessoa que tem uma média de secundário de 17,5 e depois tem uma média de 13 nos exames? Pois, eu. Só queria provar, uma vez na vida, que sou boa em alguma coisa. E mais que isso, só queria ter as notas necessárias para conseguir entrar no curso que quero (que é só o curso com a média mais alta). Sim porque para além de uma loser também sonho demasiado alto. Mas enfim agora vamos seguir para a 2ª fase e para o ano volto a repeti-los mais uma vez. Enfim... agora só peço para que os exames me corram bem na 2ª fase e para que tenha a nota que mereço! 

Fangirl post of the day

Can I have friends like you guys? ok thanks. 

Hold on to sixteen as long as you can

Being an underdog sucks. Specially when there was a time when you weren't. Having friends is cool, they're the people you have fun with. You can never laugh as much as you laugh with them. You can never be as excited as you are when you're with them. And everyone should have at least one friend and when I say friend I'm talking about a person outside the family circle if you know what I mean. And to be honest I don't have anyone but A N Y O N E that I can call friend. I used to have a bunch of people that I loved to hang out with but I don't anymore. I feel bad because I'm not an underdog, I don't like being at home all day watching tv shows and fangirling about them. Actually I do like it but I'd rather be hanging out with my friends. But I don't have any, I seriously don't. And I actually blame myself for that but to be honest I think it's their fault. They all suck, they're all liars. Every single one of them. They just abandoned me when I needed them the most. That makes me so sad you don't even imagine. I'm not this kinda person, at least didn't use to but this whole situation made me this way.

So basically what I really wanted to say is

Hold on to your friends and enjoy the moments you have with them, because people come and go and when they go most of the times they don't comeback.

DRIVE BYYYYYYYY

So this is my current musical obsession.

Awesome song.

Awesome band.

What if I never met you?

Sometimes I think about the people I know now and wonder if my life would be different if I had never met them. Not only the people I love but also the ones I hate, because both of them have an impact in my life. Let's start with the people I do hate... well I wouldn't mind if I hadn't met them to be honest, but you know when you hate or don't like a certain person, it kinda builds your character because it sets your mind to not be like that person. I don't even know if I'm making any sense. The truth is I could live without that person and be happy so yeah I wouldn't really mind not to see her/him everyday. 

The people I love, well I don't really know what to think about them because there's some people we love but then we become distant from them and it makes us sad so sometimes I think that my life would be better if I never really met them. But then I start to think about those good, awesome, lovely times I  got to spend with them and I realize that the sadness of "losing" them is worth it. 

Ok, let's be honest I'm talking about a person, about a friend that I used to call my best friend. And I still see him as my best friend although I think he has forgotten about me. I don't really know what happened, we haven't talk in months. He met new people, new friends and started to do things he had never done before with them so we grew apart. Even when we're together, it's not same, we don't have the same "empathy" as we had once. But you know I still love him, he's still my best friend and he will always be my best friend, seriously. So I'm not giving up on our friendship, there's not much that I can do now, but in a year we'll be seeing each other everyday again so yeah. Distance sucks you know, it really does, you lose friends. Even if they are great friends, it's not easy.

Anyways, back to the point of this post, I think that things happen for a reason at least good things so we just have to embrace them so I don't regret knowing all the people I love even if they had caused me some pain or whatever. The people I don't like, well I think they didn't have a real impact in my life so I don't really mind knowing them.